Keeping the Fire Alive

My professional development started when I thought of enrolling to the PTC program of the Open U. Little did I know that I would actually pursue it after being guaranteed a slot. Every day, little by little, one (late) requirement at a time, I want to believe that I am surviving. I want to believe that I can make it through this sem.

Activity 4 made me think of more what if’s after hearing the story of my sister’s former teacher who turned to be my friend. It is a sort of a sad story told to someone like me who aspires to become the best teacher I want myself to be. She turned out to be the best teacher for to students but not to herself. Lack of self motivation, check. Lack of support for professional development from the school administration, check. If her initial aspirations were considered by the school administration, her professional development could have fought a good fight.

This did not made me doubt what I want  to do after completing the program. This posed a withstanding challenge that I have to finish what I have started and should not stop learning and defying the odds. I hope that I will land to a school that considers the well-being and professional development of their teachers. On my end, I should also not let go of the fire that I have within me. I along with my target school should have a common goal of providing quality education to the youth and at the same time feeds their staff’s eagerness to move forward and advance in their field.

I hope all the teachers and aspiring educators find the dream school they deserve.

I hope my friend teacher finds a good school. I hope that after all these professional challenges that she faces, she still finds it in her heart the passion of pushing kids that they can do everything.


In One Way Or Another

It’s been already a month since this term started but I still get caught in the trap of my own schedule. I admit I still do not have a firm grasp on how to balance school schedule against other aspects of my life. I still get rattled everytime my phone beeps to remind me that the deadline is in 2 days, in 1 day, in 2 hours. If I get an academic award (I know there’s none) for bring the best crammer, it will be such an honor. If I also get an academic award (I know there’s none too) for beating deadlines in their faces, it will be something that I will brag about.

I still find myself drowing in jargons in this module and in my other class. Everytime I read the required resources, I find myself looking up as if I’m running out of oxygen. That’s what I have been through for a past month now, especially on this module. There are times that I resort to finding instructional videos that tackle the same subject as in the module guide. Sometimes I’m lucky, sometimes I’m not.

On the bright side of all of these grasping, gripping, and running, I figured out that this is something that what I should have learned by now-there are unlimited number of things to learn I just do not explore that much. If this is the case, there are also unlimited number of ways to teach effectively. It may sound funny but this sounds like a cliche my mother always tells us, “Kung ayaw may dahilan, kung gusto may paraan.”

There are a lot of things happening in my life right now and I really wonder how am I still alive. Maybe it’s about a purpose. Maybe it’s everything about the purpose.