To Carpe the Diem

What am I taking home from this course?
How have my views changed?
Have I been moved into action?

The day that I enlisted this course in my last semester in the PTC program seem like it was just yesterday. January 7, the start of the classes seems like it was just this afternoon. People say that time flies fast when you’re enjoying it. To which I say, “Time flies faster when you’re being challenged and enjoying it at the same time.”

I admit that I am not the best student in this class because I lost my end game. I submitted the requirements 2 days late if not a week. It may be my lack of experience too that will make me sit at the back if we’re in a class room setting. What I offered this class, I think,  is the curiosity that I have in me every time I enter my username and password to log in (which I will miss, including the technical difficulties). And this is my promise to myself, to my classmate I already made friends with despite the virtual relationship, to the very supportive and considerate Teacher Malou, and to my (future) students: I will not let this curiosity and the courage to ask questions die.

This course took me to many places in different time frames and met a lot of people in my imagination. It made me vacuumed all my existing “knowledge” of what assessment is just like what we are made to believe of what happen to people who traverse the Bermuda Triangle. Just when I thought that I already know what assessment is, I thought wrong at the start of the first module. You know what tabula rasa is? That is me. This course changed me in a lot of ways other than the fact that it made me rethink of what I know. Parang barahang binalasa lang ako.

What I know for now, is that I want to know and study more – and that is what I am going to do. From this day on, I will grab the opportunities that will help me overcome my insecurities as a student. I think i have already learned from my mistakes, now it is time to learn from others mistakes. I hope in my own little ways and little efforts while I prepare to teach the pag-asa ng bayan, I will be the best version that I can be and become a good teacher.

At the end of the day, we only regret the chances we did not take.

Carpe diem

 

 

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“Do Not Go to UP.”

I am sharing this story as a student. This is my story that I will never forget because never in my wildest dreams that I thought or even imagined to experience this.

There was one fateful day in my fourth year high school day that I felt really humiliated in front of my classmates. Up to this day, I consider it as the day I almost lost it and cried (if not punched my teacher) out of humiliation and anger.

Flashback: Advanced Algebra class, February 2010, board work. I was not able to answer correctly the math problem assigned to me on the board. I did my best, I promise. I got a, “Wag ka na mag-enroll sa UP, ibigay mo na lang sa iba yung slot mo.” as a remark. Followed by a comment that I should just pursue my athletic career somewhere else. As much I want to be a better student as I am a good athlete, there are really people who would throw all the mud at you. I am sure that my teacher meant what he said that day.

Be the better person they said. So I did. I still pursued my UP. I may have not graduated with honors, but that feed back gave me the grit to finish school with my chin up. My math teacher still ended up in the acknowledgement page of my undergraduate thesis for motivating me to become the best version of me in college. Sounds bitter? Sure. But I sure did find my way out of that stigma – that athletes are just people of the tournament and class. Oh hell, no.

Though I still thrive to be a good example of a future to my future students, I am sure not to let words out of my mouth that will ruin my students. I have experienced that and I know that it does not make me a better teacher if I do that to my students. Not ever. Not in this lifetime.

 

 

 

Hipster Way

I have mentioned in my previous reflections that I find all assessment the same until I am confronted with the idea and reality (at the same time) that they are not. Thanks to EDS 113, my classmates, and Teacher Malou.

I was very happy to learn about non-traditional assessment and it somehow validated my existence. Module 5 made me feel more of a human, and not a learning “robot”. It made me realize how valid my feelings and experiences are in the process of my learning and journey through life. More than that, it opened doors to potential that I am yet to discover. Non-traditional assessments made me ask more questions starting with “how” and “why”.

I think being street-wise, a very much appreciated characteristic at present, is an effect of non-traditional tests and assessments that we need to go through as a student. Being given the chance to participate in real-life scenario and given real-life problems in school as activities, we began to think of a larger scale and outside the four corners of our classrooms. Students become more empowered and responsible when their learning is being put into their hands.

As reflective teachers, we should be always alert for clues that can indicate the strong and weak points of our students when it comes to non-traditional tests and assessments. Also, we should also be mindful and keep ourselves really grounded that we still need to perform our duties as facilitators of their learning though learner-centered assessments that we can course through learner-centered activities.

Wayback Wednesday

Module 4 made me backtrack what I have learned in my first course work as a PTC student. That class tackled extensively on what reflective teaching is and how to become a reflective teacher.

As far as my short memory is concerned, one important characteristic of being a reflective teacher is caring about our students. There may be  a lot of dark and difficult times of being a teacher and the life outside it that we should live, but when you find that teaching is what makes your heart beat, it will always will. We care for our students not only because they are our responsibility once they step in the class room, but also because their progress is our pride, and their failure is ours as well.

I am saying this to boost the only remaining motivation we have of ourselves. They balance our strict nature. They make us, always, understand that what they can become can never be determined by the grades that we give them or wherever school that they acquire that they know. What is important, at the end of the day, is how they learned. This may never be easy for the both of us, but we should trust that someday, our sacrifices will count.

 

Ms. Not- Know-It-All

There are times that akala mo alam mo na lahat but reality and the universe conspires to make you realize that you do not.

Module 3 made me felt that way. I thought I have already know or atleast have a grasp of what assessment is, it turns out that I do not. It was as if Socrates whispered in my ear telling me I know nothing. Aside from making me feel grounded since the new learning sent me back to earth, I realized that I am human and there are things that I should improve on my own – and that I am given unlimited chances.

Assessment for learning, assessment of learning, and assessment as learning rebooted me and changed the way I view things. For me, assessment is only one and the same way regardless of the preposition that separates it from learning. There may be different stages of learning where we experience this or we can actually experience it all at once.

Now, more than ever, I conscious of the things I do and submit as a requirement or whatever I need to accomplish for that matter. This module made me “police” what I do as I exercise my learning in terms of assessment. To more life-changing lessons!